Almost every day someone asks if I'm excited. I say yes.
I'm not always sure that's true.
Last night my friend Juli asked what I'd do if I had the opportunity to live in Africa long term... I'd do it.
Why this terrifies me? because I dont want to.
There are two sides to every story and I think often times people look at me and see an adventurous spirit... others have identified me as flighty... the surface is deceiving. There is a part of me that longs for consistency, stability... I look around and see people advancing in career paths, starting families. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want that. But I want to follow Christ more.
There is no way you can walk through something like this and expect things to stay the same. Even when I come back the world I return to will have changed... I will have changed. In a sense I feel like I never really know what I'm saying goodbye to when I leave.
And then there's the fact that if I felt called to stay, I'd stay- but I'd miss my friends, my family... my life.
Why do I do it then?
Obedience.
I want to be where God wants me- even if there's pain in the process
I've counted up the cost, and You are worth it.
I'm not always sure that's true.
Last night my friend Juli asked what I'd do if I had the opportunity to live in Africa long term... I'd do it.
Why this terrifies me? because I dont want to.
There are two sides to every story and I think often times people look at me and see an adventurous spirit... others have identified me as flighty... the surface is deceiving. There is a part of me that longs for consistency, stability... I look around and see people advancing in career paths, starting families. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want that. But I want to follow Christ more.
There is no way you can walk through something like this and expect things to stay the same. Even when I come back the world I return to will have changed... I will have changed. In a sense I feel like I never really know what I'm saying goodbye to when I leave.
And then there's the fact that if I felt called to stay, I'd stay- but I'd miss my friends, my family... my life.
Why do I do it then?
Obedience.
I want to be where God wants me- even if there's pain in the process
I've counted up the cost, and You are worth it.
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